What do you do when it feels like most things in your life are falling apart?
What do you do when you feel like it's your fault most things are falling apart?
Giving up is the easy answer
And I won't tell you not to do it
People who persevere are strong people.
And the rest of us who sit on our arms and whine about how the world is cruel to us…
Who whine about how cruel we are to ourselves…
We are weak.
How do you know when to take a break?
As your responsibility grows, your problems increase and your world view changes
You find you have to do more now. More than you’re used to and you don't know how to handle it.
The pressure eats you from the inside and you’re sure you’re a quitter
You're tempted to go back to your bad habits of self-sabotage
Hell, you do go back to your bad habits
You fuck up the progress you've made by quitting
You fuck up your health by not taking care of yourself anymore
You fuck up your friendships by antagonizing everyone who’s ever loved and supported you
You fuck up your relationship with your best friend(s) by saying terrible things to them when all they've done is take care of you
You fuck up your life by not loving yourself enough. By not forgiving yourself. By not treating yourself as a human being deserving of kindness, care and respect.
So what do you do now?
You’re in bed, alone. You have no one you can call because you've fucked it up
You’re unsure of yourself
You’re wondering if you're still moving at your own pace
You're wondering if all this is a result of leaving your comfort zone. You're looking for a way back.
You’re wondering if the world is moving too fast for you. Can you keep up?
How do you earn forgiveness?
How do you earn trust?
How do you earn love?
I don’t know.
Someone told me to change my narrative if I didn’t like it.
I think i’ll do that.
Maybe you will too
Maybe you’ll treat yourself with the love and respect you deserve
I don't know
But for now, i’m going to see a movie, and hope that I give myself the strength to take care of me.
And then, maybe, the people I love will come back to me.
Stay easy,
Dave
subtle but i like